THE BEGINNING

Today, I bought a pocket notebook. I've found, lately, that I see a few thoughts that I tend to churn over and over in my mind, and I thought it might be helpful for my mental health to write some of these down. I've been jotting down, in short quips, some of the things that my mind seems to find interesting. At the end (or the middle, as the case may be) of the day, I will sit down and write about one of the ideas.

The experience is meant to meditative in essence. I hoping to help clear my mind of the thoughts that distract me from enjoying the moment I am currently existing in. I haven't been keeping up with the seated meditation, and I can feel the difference in the way I think. I've felt very scatter-brained lately, and the hope is that by getting the thoughts out of my mind and onto paper, and later typed up, they will bother my mind less and I can enjoy my present time more.

I hope I can stick with this idea. There are quite a few things I've said I wanted to do and never did. I've stuck with (generally) meditation and evening workout, although both have suffered since I got to Italy. I do need to make an active effort to keep all the ideas I have in constant rotation.

Why do good ideas fade? Do we just lose energy? Motivation? Desire? Do we just forget? I meant to do quite a few things this afternoon, and I just completely lost track of time, and almost got to class quite late. Settling in has just been a mess, but it's getting back into being a fun mess. I hope this goes well.